City of My Mind (Album)

by Jewelia

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Jade Harris-Tyler There are many highlights on this album that deserve individual praise, to the point where an overall review would be an injustice to the sheer amount of creativity and ambition that has been lovingly woven into every aspect of this project. The vocals are cathartic and awash with emotion, which is emphasised by the bold orchestration and the meticulous use of dynamics and key signature. 'City of My Mind' is a sonic exploration that breaks boundaries musically and challenges the mainstream. Favorite track: If Silence.
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1.
‘Who’s this little girl with big brown curls? she never talks, she only stares in space with big round eyes Could it be that she can see something that we cannot see What's this strange game and who else is in it? It's just imagination, Imagination Where is all this anger coming from? Now all my friends who never had a name Come down only at night And we still play together in the dark A harmless game, then why this shame? I guess I've lost since I grew up But I’ve still got the city of my mind Yes, I've still got the city of mind I'll build myself in it I'll sing myself to sleep When no one else is here to make believe I'll make myself believe I'll sing myself to sleep I'll tuck myself in bed Tell stories in my head Dream out of dream again Dream out of dream again Dream out of dream again But I’ve still got the city of my mind Yes, I've still got the city of mind I'll build myself in it I'll sing myself to sleep When no one else is here to make believe
2.
I would never tell if you had a secret Dark as it may be, I would never tell You don’t have to fear - proof that you can trust me - If you let me in, I will share the guilt I would never tell I would never tell Whisper close to me here behind the curtain Mum and Dad can’t hear us, and I would never tell I would never tell Even if it killed me Even if it hurts I know you don’t mean it Oh, what do I know about what's right and wrong Oh, what do I know? I would never tell, even if it killed me We can go to hell, I’m your little secret And you can never leave me Oh, you can never leave me Yeah, you can never leave me Otherwise I’ll tell Oh, what do I know about what's right and wrong? Oh yeah, what do I know? I’m just a little girl
3.
Monsters shouldn’t have everyday eyes like you do Monsters shouldn’t know how to smile without the evil showing through Like a God, you can give life But you took everything from me Empty shell to fill it up With whatever you want me to be Over my eyes there is a mist, these walls contain a world so sick Silence so deep threatening me until I forget who I’m supposed to be Like a God, you give and take There’s nothing else, there’s no one else When the lines begin to blend I’m a puppet in your hands Oh, when monsters spare their prey Oh, it means they want to play I know you, I know you, I’ve seen what you can do I know the truth of what you are But the devil inside you, the evil that guides you I can’t show it to anyone Like a God, you give and take And at your will I twist and break In this nightmare that you made You’re the only thing I have Oh, when monsters spare their prey Oh, it means they want to play. Ah, the monsters don’t come out at night Ah, they live among us in plain sight
4.
Let Go 03:23
Earth and Fire, we were one, we clutched one to another like there was no other soul to keep us company sticks and stones will break my bones but they can’t crush the shadows in my soul some never truly learn to let go Fire burns and water flows What flies will hunt whatever crawls Oh, I think you know Wanting someone is not always love You make me shine Sweet love of mine You cast away all my shadows But a fire so strong Can’t last too long Before we burn we have to let it go There’s no consolation prize Just the emptiness that follows I have never asked for any sacrifice Fire burns and water flows What flies will hunt whatever crawls Oh, I think you know Wanting someone is not always love You make me shine Sweet love of mine You cast away all my shadows But a fire so strong Can’t last too long Before we burn we have to let it go My heart is finding yours we tiptoe in the dark We’re smothering the flame we’re dying to ignite Burn, burn You make me shine Sweet love of mine You cast away all my shadows But a fire so strong Can’t last too long Before we burn we have to let it go
5.
Monsters 03:54
I don't wanna be free, you don't wanna be free I'm alone, you're alone Let's be alone together I don't think I'm in love, I don't think you're in love And I know I'll get bored But this room is so cold Do not expect too much, I just want you to be a convenient shelter Drive away my lonely nights, my monsters Won't you Save me, don't you know that all the girls are crazy? Don't you love control, so won't you be my baby? You can have it all while I'm not giving any Don't you love control, so won't you be mine This is more than a game And I'm starting to get used to missing you When you're not around I've got this empty chair, I keep it beside my bed Used to dream that the devil was sitting there But now it's you, it's you, my darling I keep talking to you even when you are not listening Won't you Save me, don't you know that all the girls are crazy? Don't you love control, so won't you be my baby? You can have it all while I'm not giving any Don't you love control, so won't you be my… Oh oh All my nightmares are now gone, all excepting one Now that my monsters left, if you go, I'll be all alone Save me, don't you know that all the girls are crazy? Don't you love control, so won't you be my baby? You can have it all while I'm not giving any Show me how to love and I will be your… Oh oh
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7.
Dead Leaves 03:12
You sleep so still, so beautiful I could watch you for ages So silent and warm, my eyelids fall Like dead leaves in autumn The morning light is playing in your hair I only sit and stare You slowly smile and so do I, it's bliss And baby you're my moment of peace. You sleep so still, so beautiful I can barely hear you breathe I wonder what you're dreaming of 'Cause baby this feels like a dream to me But life is waiting outside the door We can't stay forever like this Just one more minute let me watch you sleep It's autumn again, There was a time when it didn't mean a thing But now dead leaves remind me of a morning When for a moment time stood still It was just me and you against the world Everything else behind that door I gently kissed your eyes to say goodbye And baby, then I went outside…
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I swore I’d forget you, told my psychiatrist the dreams were gone she doesn’t believe you’re real gave me pills to make you disappear The phone stopped ringing a while ago I swear it worked before we’d spend nights talking until dawn you must have changed your number you must not want me anymore I used to take you to the cinema, to dinner I’d always drive; I sometimes paid for two I’ve started thinking - maybe there’s no proof other than that I loved you, (yes, I did!) If only… if only you were real I used to draw your name in the sand and sing for you you made me feel more alive than anyone I knew just thinking of you my blood would rush I’d shiver when we’d almost touch sometimes I think it’s hard to love anyone so much I swore I’d let you go I dance with people, imagine they are you I get in bed with them and I don’t feel a thing unless I call your name silently - they never hear they never know you’ve been my only one If only you were real
9.
The morning hurts, the daylight stabs you in the eyes You washed your faced, you cooled the itch between your thighs In your paradise the angels rock the homeless look I’d almost like you if you weren’t quite so crooked Am I too dull or are the screens too bright in here? Am I the one shaping my life or is it shaping me? Who writes the script when all we’re taught is how to read? We gotta live with it, forget it, live with it. The Queen of Rags will sell her soul For the clothes of the Emperor Everyone knows that good tearjerkers are the best ‘Come on, I’ll take you home, I’ll help you get undressed I’ll soothe my pain by contemplating misery I know you’re cheap, but not cheaper than me’ Turn up that that awful music, I can hear my thoughts While I decide my destiny by drawing lots These days the sky doesn't let anybody kiss it I got to live with it, forgive it, live with it The Queen of Rags will sell her soul For the clothes of the Emperor The Queen of Rags will sell her soul For the clothes of the Emperor
10.
Fall in Love 03:32
What have I done to myself? What have I sculpted in my flesh? What can I do when my ego suddenly escapes the cage? I can turn myself into an irresponsive instrument Only presume it’s guilty until proven innocent Stranger, if you only took the time To see not only me, but all that’s mine If only I didn’t think I knew it so well Maybe I’d fall in love These broken walls still have my old name sprayed on them It doesn’t look so flattering now, I’m afraid Darling, if we only could forget, Make our beaten selves function again If only I didn’t think I knew it so well Maybe I’d fall in love Love, love With myself again
11.
If Silence 03:40
Strange how the morning feels so grim When you wake up from a dream Scent of love so far long gone Storms have come the ship has drowned Couldn’t leave the weights behind If silence speaks more than words can Then why didn’t you understand? If time is the best healer, then how come All it does is make us forget? Strange how the streets are just the same they get lonely when it rains Trace of love so far long gone Can this ship keep sailing on her own? If silence speaks more than words can Then why didn’t you understand? If time is the best healer, then how come All it does is make us forget? Pulleys and strings, they’ve all gone wrong Like I knew it all along Some things are just not meant to last But they keep on coming back to haunt If silence speaks more than words can Then why didn’t you understand? If time is the best healer, then how come All it does is make us forget?
12.
Hurricane 04:29
I am sick of watching stories and screens flickering with other people’s sins and other people’s dreams viewing life like a spectator from the balcony, not even close enough to smell the dust when the curtain falls I can never tell which side I’m on I dance inside a hurricane But I don’t wanna let go Life is scary when you’re not in control But I wanna see where it takes me, I wanna see what it throws at me Everyone else moving in a rush around me while I’m standing petrified with no one by my side someone share with me the secret is there something that I’m missing? what’s the point of life when you can’t tame your mind? I stay up wondering all night will I really ever get it right I dance inside a hurricane But I don’t wanna let go Life is scary when you’re not in control But I wanna see where it takes me Yes, I wanna see When the only way to cope with the moment is pretend it’s not happening When the things you loved the most now don’t mean anything When you float as far as you can be and no one else can reach you, Listen to me, I promise it will get better You gotta stick around for long enough to see I dance inside a hurricane and there’s one inside me Got nothing to lose so I’ll spin and dance with it And I will learn to love it Yes I will learn to love it

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released December 8, 2018

Music and Lyrics: Iulia Tache

Production: Iulia Tache and Andy Denyer (1 - 12), Antony Galatis (5)
Mixing: Iulia Tache and Andy Denyer (1 - 12), Brett Shaw (4, 5, 10, 11, 12)
Mastering: Pete Maher (1, 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, 9), Metropolis Studios (2, 5, 10, 11, 12)

Vocals and Piano: Iulia Tache
Guitar: Henry Churchill (2, 3, 4, 5, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12 ), Andy Denyer (1, 6, 12)
Drum Kit: Andy Denyer (8, 11)
Backing Vocals: Andy Denyer (9, 12)

Conducting: David Denyer (2)

Violin: David Denyer (1, 11), Henry Rankin (6, 8, 12), Kate Agostino (2), Luís Mota (2), Lee Anne Blackmore (2),
Jamie Philokyprou (11), Ivan Cheng (11),
Viola: Katherine Clarke (2), Royce Chen (2), David Denyer (11), Oliver Mayo (6, 12)
Violoncello: Jon Gibson (6, 12), Lydia Emily Dobson (2), Clara Berger (2), Andrew Harsley (2),
Double Bass: Matt Begg (2)

Trumpet: Elliot Phelps (2), Adam Stockbridge (2, 9), Antoine Sarkar (2, 9), Adam Saunders (11), Will Lyons (11),
Fergus Pateman (11), Oliver Bowring (11)
Trombone: Ross Johnson (2), Alec Coles-Aldridge (2), James Maund (2), Alice Batchelor (11)
Horn: Kaitlyn Lipka,(2), Jack Pilcher May (2)
Saxophone: Chris Kalcov (11), Aidan Scanlon (11), Oscar Ives-Owen (11)

Flute: Max Skibinski (8)

Percussion: Kofi Percussion (1)

Photography: Laura Radford (booklet cover) and Andy Denyer (other)
Artwork by Iulia Tache

Many thanks to all my Kickstarter backers who made this possible. I couldn’t have done it without you!

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Jewelia London, UK

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Singer/songwriter producing my own music, a mixture of art pop with alternative, chamber pop and electronica. I use music and poetry to create stories; they must be good, because I often end up believing them.

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